Just Flow

So in the last few months I’ve gotten three marriage proposals of sorts and I decided to consider it not odd. I’m a great catch. No, I’m not conceited, but from here on out I’ve decided to fully embrace all I have to offer…..completely be myself with no apologies, and live the life God’s given me to the fullest!!!! That said, despite those, there have been several other attempts to get me otherwise distracted from what needs to be done. PURPOSE!!!

It seems that since I was 15 years old I’ve been in some type of “relationship.” It’s not that I’m warding off the idea of marriage or the thought of dating, it’s just that it is amazing how attractive you become when you decide that you’re just fine one way or another…

I mean whether I’m with someone or not….

I used to allow my mind to be consumed with the what ifs of dating…When my husband and I split several years ago, I toyed with the idea of dating, but even then I was not being honest with myself about what I really wanted or better yet what I needed. At the time, though I waited years to get back on the scene, I still didn’t even understand how to go about it….

I was used to settling…for so much less than who I deserved…I was used to arguing over dumb stuff…so I’ve decided that’s no longer allowed in my life…Some might think it strange that I would say that…Everybody argues right?

Wrong….you really don’t have to argue, but I can agree to disagree…just like I agree to disagree with all of you out there who believes that you must have a life with drama to sustain a relationship…

Lies and Deception….

I know that laughter is indeed life’s antidote…people might disagree, but the joy I have is too valuable for me to allow drama and bitterness come in and take over…nope…not going anymore even a little bit.

People Prayer works…yes, I know this post is all over the place, but hey that’s just me and I really don’t care how you take that…really I don’t…all I can say is that it is incredibly freeing to be yourself, not be consumed with the opinions of others, and just be content…This probably should have been a post all by itself, but oh well…I’ve learned a few things that I don’t intend to forget…

I’m loved by My Father…I’m loved by Myself…And there’s quite a few others out there that love me too…I’m just so done with people pleasing to my detriment…I’m just so done wondering what this person and that person is thinking about me or what I’m doing…my time is valuable so to major on the minor is no longer an option…

Amazing how the things we learn only are understood to be a resource later in life….I worked at a marriage ministry…picked up so much information on what to do and what not to do…and  here I am with a problem many ladies might wish they had….

Three possible suitors simultaneously vying for my attention, yet all I see is purpose.  Not that any of the guys are unappealing…In fact, all are pretty good options I guess…that is if I were interested…Hmmm…a lot to think about, but not so much…

I’ve decided to be focused.  I’ve decided to remain ambitious.  I’ve decided to go against the grain and enjoy doing me because it’s the me who needs to be transparent…the me who desires other ladies to get to a balanced place in mind and heart like I’ve been granted….I’m not going back to where I’ve been…I’m not stuck up…just standards call for boundaries…Life has taught me that before I muddied the waters  too much.

Now don’t get me wrong, I do not regret any decision I have made so far…

I’m just realizing how a good thing may not always be a God thing…and even if that good thing is a God thing, if rushed, it can be ruined….how distance definitely can make a heart grow fonder…and if it was meant to be, it will be.  That said, when the time is right it’s right…

It’s just nice to know that one day all distractions aside, it will be worth the wait…that maturity is not actually measured by one’s  age…that life is a trip and sometimes you’ve got to be willing to just pack up and roll with it…

In case you’re wondering, I’ve decided to just flow!

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