I hadn’t considered so many had access beyond my yesterday until today.
I came across Psalms 1:1-3:
1 Blessed is the one, who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, 2 but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night. 3 That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither—whatever they do prospers.
Now I get it—why some think my views peculiar. It’s amazing God decided to use me to represent His Kingdom and encourage others when not long ago I could barely encourage myself.
How GREAT IS MY GOD!!!
I realize the Holy Spirit has been fine-tuning me. Lately, blatant sin irks me!!! Yes, I’m seriously convicted even when I have an inappropriate thought! I’ve been seriously grieved by the way we as Christians misrepresent the grace of God so often. Oh this rant includes myself too if that’s not apparent!
I’m not perfect nor do I want you to think I am all about legalizing the Gospel. Religion is sooooo not my thing people!!!
However, in the past, every time I said something “right” in the midst of wrong , I got that “look!!!” Let me clarify the wrong I mean–you know the gossip, lying, complaining, and other stuff we do that obviously displeases God and misrepresents His Kingdom–Now, that stuff stops with me!
It wasn’t always the case though, so understand if you are not there yet, ask God to convict you immediately and HE is faithful to do it.! Trust! There have been many times I started complaining only to get caught up to clam up…Oh and conviction is not condemnation either.
Now back to that “look”…You know the glare that says, “Who does she think she is?”
For those still wondering the answer to that question, “I know that I’m a child of God and if He gives me the urge to speak against it, it’s done!”
I’ve been back-stabbed by the best of them, yet this verse is just one more reason to keep a smile on my face.
The cool thing about how much I know God loves me is that when I once doubted my ability to be bold and represent Him well because of my own mottled past, He showed me that I’m holy because He is Holy…that my light will outshine the darkness and how His love covers a multitude of sin!
He also confirmed to me that my transparency is what so many need. They need to understand that it is God’s specialty to use those who might consider themselves less than so that He can show through His grace that yes greater is He that is in me than He that is in the world.
Before I came to this revelation, I’d witnessed some very sad scenarios, but I said nothing to those involved because I feared backlash…despite the Holy Spirit’s urging. I even used to care so much about what people thought of me that I wouldn’t dare be myself.
It was not popular so I wore the mask. In fact, when God really began to convict me about gossip, I would merely co-sign with others instead of outright passing information along. But it is nothing like getting convicted when you know better!
I decided a long time ago that in that area of my life, I didn’t like that feeling so if what you are saying to me about someone else is not something that will edify them, positively encourage me, or that you would not mind saying in their presence…I have no time for it and I will tell you so immediately. It is for this reason that I admonish people to consider the courtship of EVERY RELATIONSHIP because if that person is willing to poison your spirit spreading death about others, their words are merely seasoning you for the oven they are preheating. You are surely next on the menu…It usually starts with something like, Girl, let me tell you…
Well, God showed me this week that I am to do right because it’s right, not because I expect to be rewarded for what I’m supposed to do anyway.
I changed my mind verbally years ago to serve the Lord with all my heart, but I just made up my mind a few months ago that God deserves my best so that inevitably means I must disconnect from those who don’t have His best in mind.
So recently I have had to disconnect from relationships I cherished because God said, “no.” While the reality of those decisions hurt, I realize He knows what is best for me because when others chose to disconnect from me in mockery, gossip, or lies, He did not. That said, if you know the people in your circle are not on your level or higher spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, it is likely time for you also to disconnect accordingly.
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