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Better Not Bitter

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August 2017

Ladies, Be Chosen

I’m still full from today’s discussion at church…this first installment of what a woman wants, what a man needs has been great confirmation for some of the things and paths God’s working in and through my life.

When my pastor mentioned how women need affection he hit just the tip of the iceberg because baaaby…the rest that followed felt like this dude had been peeking through the pages of my journal!

Still, it was refreshing to be in an atmosphere where I realized why all this time I’ve been so particular about my standards…and nooo I’m still not budging on ’em either…I have lived long enough to know EXACTLY WHAT I DON’T WANT…and that knowledge has paved the way for me discovering what I need!

When he mentioned, she wants to be adored…that hit home…now I know why for years I’d be hung up on all these romantic comedies…there was always this surrealism I wanted to taste. I probably at some point have mentioned in previous writings about how that stuff on the screen is selling false hope or something like that, but the more I get acquainted with the real me I’m convinced those type of romances do exist…of course it’s not going to happen immediately…well, actually given what I’ve experienced in my last year or so, I think once you get a revelation of who God has for you, that process can take longer…trust me…it’s been a long winding path for this chick, but every time I get to a place and think, “why bother with this love crap, it isn’t reciprocal!” God reminds me of how long and hard He loved me before I began to reciprocate it.

I can only hope my future spouse loves me half as much as God has shown me over the years and I’ll die an utterly satisfied young lady. That said, let me get to my point…just because a man’s head is big enough to fit a crown, doesn’t mean he is worthy to receive one…The bible states the virtuous wife is the crown of her husband’s head…Understand that if he is not able to receive what you are ready to offer, it might be time to move on.

Notice, I said might.

I say might because sometimes what you think is denial is merely delay…and delay is really perfect timing. I’ve said before God’s given me too many confirmations for me to deny with the one I’m supposed to be with, but still we both have a choice in the matter.

My pastor even mentioned a few weeks ago how God’s not going to force you to pick up your mantle.  That said, the things I’ve experienced in my heart have been interesting…at times I feel like this waiting game is like watching paint dry and at other times I get paranoid considering I am to do or say when things shift forward as I perceive they will?

And then there’s the meantime…okay I promise I have a point…that segway where frogs present themselves as princes….

Thankfully, now I see ’em coming a mile away, but doesn’t the devil knows how to dress ’em up though?

…all the things I thought I wanted…the height, the physique, the complexion—yeah I went there— but today as I almost began to OVERTHINK my process for the 100th time again…and I heard the whisper…

Relax…

I thought I had…BOTTOM LINE…LADIES, consider the Right Kingly attributes…God outlined it to Moses…Check out DEUTERONOMY 17:14-20.

And of course learn to wait well.

©2017 Nadia Davis. All Rights Reserved.

This I Know

Over the years, God has allowed me to be humbled by stupid decisions. Some of which I’ve observed in others, but most of them have been from my own shenanigans.

That said, I find myself second guessing too much lately. That’s not a good thing folks. I know God’s blessed me with discernment, but memories of past mistakes can wreak havoc on an otherwise sound decision if I allow it.

So how exactly does one overcome the knowledge of oneself?

….Or I guess a better assessment might be to say, “How do I forget what’s behind and push forward to the mark of my higher calling!”

I’ll tell you…by knowing the character of God…

You might have noticed some days my words seem a bit more random than others, but I admit even those aren’t. Intentionality is God’s fingerprint. In the last few weeks, God has proven Himself over and over. It’s been a while since I’ve been real with Him in prayer…You know actually admitting my confusion and frustration…actually crying out to Him for direction and being willing to get somewhere and SAT down…to wait for a response…AND YES I MEANT TO SAY “SAT.”

Moving on…

Regardless, God is faithful and though some of my desires have not manifested yet, I have to consider this thing as it is and not as it will be: temporary…a test…a challenge…a laughing matter directing me to my future.

I mean some of the things I have endured…especially in the romance arena have been downright hilarious! Still, I am in awe at the ways God has taught me lessons I feel like I should have known a LONG…LONG time ago.

So I say I’ll wait for a response…for an acknowledgement…to be adored…to be desired…because God patient enough to wait for me…I’m sure my wait will be worth it…

If I know so little else…This I know.

©2017 Nadia Davis. All Rights Reserved.

 

 

This Open Book

I’ve said for a while I’m an open book. This morning I’ve contemplated that premise and confirmed in my heart that there are still pages within soldered with tears. Those leaves are reserved for the few willing and able to be patient enough to carefully separate the two or three or thousand that to the naked eye appear in tact.

So while there’s no lock on this book and the experiences therein, there are still sections melded in a quiet pain only a delicate touch, a passionate heart, and an understanding mind can receive access. So this book struggles to complete chapters destined to be re-written in the thoughts and behaviors of the vessel meant to house them.

Friendships are hard.

Love is harder.

Vulnerability is menacing in none but a required way.

So I’m forced to consider whether I am willing to bring to his attention those pages I have yet to uncover. I stand still, frozen in ice too thick for vision to penetrate. I still long to share, but… Just but. The opportunity rises and falls with attitudes and emotions, but the longing refuses to cease her whisper. Destiny denies the ability to retract her request.

Wisdom speaks…breaking the white noise of monotony…

I stand still. I crouch. I hide.

Temptation lurks, but fails to convince her to close the book this time…

Her desire to know him and to be known by him is stronger.

Clarity…as my innermost inklings are revealed…

so I must submit to the process…

©2017 Nadia Davis. All Rights Reserved.

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