Just say no…to the promotion????  So the other day I declined a promotion I’d been vying for since last September.
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I prayed about my decision that morning and the days prior.  I knew the extra money would help considering the financial struggles I faced last year, but I just didn’t have peace with saying yes.
I suppose I’ve always known I was meant to be a leader so opting to follow again is starting to get old.
I planned to request a meeting with those involved so that I could clarify my intentions face to face, yet the moment the issue came across my mind last Thursday, I received an email from the trainer wondering why I had abruptly stopped my training a few weeks prior.
Immediately I began this response:
 
Thank you for checking in with me. I was just about to get in touch with you in person.  However, since you’ve contacted me I suppose I should share this via email instead.  It pains me to tell you that I will not be able to complete the training as I don’t have peace with the transition.
 
While I love the prospect of helping people and even mentoring people, at heart I’m a writer and advocate for those torn by domestic violence so while I am working in ministry here, I know that God has called me to do more with my gifts.
 
While I will continue to do my duties here for now, I can no longer allow my time to be divided from what I vowed to God long ago.  I am currently working on other projects related to my ministry that demand my immediate attention.  I’m sorry for not letting you know sooner, but I wanted to be sure I was making the right decision.  I’ve prayed about it and I am very sure that this decision is God’s will.
 
Please know that I am eternally grateful for your consideration, but I must respectfully decline the opportunity and be obedient to the Father.
Blessings, 
Nadia Davis

That response sat in my inbox as a draft for the entire weekend.  I pressed send Monday morning after receiving confirmation from my pastor’s sermon as well as the following scriptures I came across the other morning:

1 Kings 19:13-15 New King James Version (NKJV)

13 So it was, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave. Suddenly a voice came to him, and said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

14 And he said, “I have been very zealous for the Lord God of hosts; because the children of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars, and killed Your prophets with the sword. I alone am left; and they seek to take my life.”

15 Then the Lord said to him: “Go, return on your way to the Wilderness of Damascus; and when you arrive, anoint Hazael as king over Syria.

Until I’d read those words, I hadn’t consciously decided that my time at this ministry would come to a close so soon.  Yet, the more I thought of the assignments I’d be given and the tasks that would be required of me, the more out of place I felt.

I pondered whether I would state in that email that I would not be there much longer, but I didn’t include it.  I wasn’t being honest with myself or with my employer.  Yet, a mere day after sending it, there I was in my one on one meeting spouting it off without warning.

“This time next year, I will not be here.  I’m working on four books!”

My immediate supervisor acknowledged that he wasn’t surprised by my email and was glad that I could focus on one thing…then reiterated the need to prioritize appropriately. I’m grateful to have encountered such Godly people at work considering the wireless inferno I had been imprisoned in before being blessed to work at the ministry.

I admit, I’m nervous about where God is taking me.  I truly feel like Abraham…going to an unknown place with faith as my guide.  Yet, since He designed my destiny before I was formed in my mother’s womb,  I’m sure I can trust Him to get me there. Regardless from now on I’m determined to be decisive about my destiny!