That response sat in my inbox as a draft for the entire weekend. I pressed send Monday morning after receiving confirmation from my pastor’s sermon as well as the following scriptures I came across the other morning:
1 Kings 19:13-15 New King James Version (NKJV)
13 So it was, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave. Suddenly a voice came to him, and said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
14 And he said, “I have been very zealous for the Lord God of hosts; because the children of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars, and killed Your prophets with the sword. I alone am left; and they seek to take my life.”
15 Then the Lord said to him: “Go, return on your way to the Wilderness of Damascus; and when you arrive, anoint Hazael as king over Syria.
Until I’d read those words, I hadn’t consciously decided that my time at this ministry would come to a close so soon. Yet, the more I thought of the assignments I’d be given and the tasks that would be required of me, the more out of place I felt.
I pondered whether I would state in that email that I would not be there much longer, but I didn’t include it. I wasn’t being honest with myself or with my employer. Yet, a mere day after sending it, there I was in my one on one meeting spouting it off without warning.
“This time next year, I will not be here. I’m working on four books!”
My immediate supervisor acknowledged that he wasn’t surprised by my email and was glad that I could focus on one thing…then reiterated the need to prioritize appropriately. I’m grateful to have encountered such Godly people at work considering the wireless inferno I had been imprisoned in before being blessed to work at the ministry.
I admit, I’m nervous about where God is taking me. I truly feel like Abraham…going to an unknown place with faith as my guide. Yet, since He designed my destiny before I was formed in my mother’s womb, I’m sure I can trust Him to get me there. Regardless from now on I’m determined to be decisive about my destiny!